Dirty Little Secret

I'll probably tell my friends about this after we have graduated. Maybe a lot of years after we have graduated.

I think I've already told some people that I used to like you but only my best friend knows that I still do.

Well, I'm not even sure myself if I still like you. There are days that I do, some days I feel... just normal, I guess.

It's not like I don't want to tell my friends. It's just that... things are going okay right now between us and I don't want to risk it being awkward again. And by "okay" I mean that we're past pretending that the other does not exist whenever we're in the same room. And at least we're "talking" right now, unlike the usual nods and shrugs.

Things would have been much easier if I had just gotten over you four years ago. Sigh. Why do we have to be so damn complicated?

Block Love

Block U2

This was last weekend, at Kabayan Resort in Laiya, Batangas. It was the first time our block actually had a real outing. Haha.

I... really don't know what to say so I'll write you a letter instead:

My dearest Block U2,

I'm glad I have you guys as my blockmates. I couldn't imagine myself being in another block. I remember our OrSem days when I wrote in my journal how I think we were the "best block ever". Nothing ever made that statement any less true.

I love you guys.

♥ Rachel

Accident Prone

Today I managed to:

• ditch my 7:30 class because I was too lazy to get out of bed.
• catch a slight fever which might be half the reason why I was too lazy to get out of bed.
• get an annoying headache all day.
• break my Starbucks tumbler. :(
• cut my middle finger on broken tumbler.
• cut my left arm on... something.
• bump my right arm on a doorknob.
• get another mysterious scratch on my left arm. D:

I'm not sure if I'm just terribly clumsy today or if someone has managed to cast a curse on me. Le Sigh.

I had a talk with my conscience.

Conscience: Do you hear that?
Rachel: What? I don't hear anything.
Conscience: That's the sound of failure coming to get you.
Rachel: Fuck you.
Conscience: *smirk*
Rachel: Do you hear that?
Conscience: Hm?
Rachel: That's the sound of my heart breaking.


This is a side-effect of failing an exam -- self-pity bordering on insanity. :|

Ganito kapag natatalo ng La Salle ang Ateneo.

Scene 1
(I had a bet with my brother, who's from La Salle, so he texted me right after the game to claim it.)
Kuya: Ok libre mo nalang kami nila lyn dinner mamaya...hahaha
Me: Ehh. Kayo naman nagpapaluto, kaw na lang manlibre hahahaha >:P
Kuya: Aww...kaya pala ang daming 3pts...haha basta libre mo kami mamaya...
Me: Marami rin naman kaming 3pts e beh beh beh beh!


Scene 2
(My Dad, who was watching the game on tv, also texted me after the game.)
Dad: Sensya na ate matindi pala sa 3pts si marata hehe
Me: Si kuya sinisingil ako 500
Dad: Hahaha bayad ka syempre
(I was hoping he would side with me if I tell him that Kuya is demanding money from me but my plan backfired. :|)

Scene 3
(My sister, who is from UST, never let me hear the end of it. I think she was trying to get back on me when I gloated that Ateneo won over UST.)
Mommy: Oh, panalo kayo?
Me: :| *whispers* hindi.
Lyn: Ano? talo kayo? talo kayo? Hahaha
Me: *glares* :|
(after every 5min)
Lyn: Aww, talo. Haha.


Scene 4
(I wasn't supposed to talk to her. But my mom passed me the phone and I ended up more verbally abused.)
Joy: Talo daw kayo sabi ni dad?
Me: Ano naman ngayon?
Joy: Bayaran mo na si kuya.
Me: Ayoko nga.
Joy: Kay kuya bon ako kampi. Hahahaha.
Me: I hate you i hate you. Ibaba ko na yung phone. Babay babay!
Joy: Hahaha. I love you.
Me: Babay! Babay! Babay!
Joy: Ba't hindi mo pa binababa yung phone?
Me: Beh! Babay! *ends phone call*


Scene 5
(I never told her about the bet. I'm guessing Dad did.)
Mommy: Oh, binayaran mo na si kuya?
Me: Hindi pa. Ayoko nga.
Mommy: Eh pano kung ikaw yung nanalo tapos hindi ka binayaran.
Me: *grumbles* okay lang sakin.


It's unfair. Bloody unfair. They were all ganging up on me. Maybe because they think it's funny that I get worked up all too easily. But still. 5 vs 1? That's like playing a basketball game with no teammates! I don't know which side my younger brother would be taking. I didn't ask him cause it might end up to be 6 vs 1 and that would be just pathetic. But I could always guilt him into siding with me because I bought him an Ateneo jersey and shirt before. Ha!