ano daw?

magulo kang tao.

wala lang. 

XD

Reminiscing

(I promise i'm going to study after this, so just let me rant for now)

I was browsing through my old multiply albums when i saw this picure. This was taken last year at Catanduanes when we had this spontaneous trip to Karin's place. Which then reminds me how much i miss spending time with them. 

I miss the videoke sessions, the sabaw talks (even without the booze), the anime marathons, the sleepovers, the random and completely nonsensical fanfictions, the crazy, spontaneous stuffs we do every now and then, and well, i simply miss hanging out with them.

Maybe, if time permits, we can do something crazy again before first semester starts. And maybe we can drag along t-chan, d'rin, and dun-chan. Wittle Fweax unite once again, huh? That'll be fun for sure.

I sure miss those days.

Bursting my Thought Bubbles

I've been wanting to write an update for quite a while now but i just can't seem to get into the mood. I must have attempted to write a number of times, only to delete everything when i lose my train of thoughts. It's funny how my thought bubbles seem to be bursting one after the other.

I think i need a mind reader. As much as i want to talk about things, i can't seem to put them into words. I needed them out of my head but i can't. Of all the times i've relied on writing to put my mind into ease, it just have to fail me now. I'm running out of options.

I honestly hate writing with depth. I mean, i do love writing, but not when i have to write something that would make me really think. I prefer the random, witty, and funny ones, thank you very much. But lately, i can't seem to stop thinking about everything and nothing, it's starting to drive me insane. And as much as i wanted to keep an i-don't-care-what-happens-fuck-the-world attitude, it just doesn't seem to be working right now. Which leaves me to my dilemma of having to resolve this problem of thinking too much by jotting them down and coming up with a reasonable solution. It's a cyclic process and i don't know where to start.

edit:

Bubble Bursts

1. The fact that i'm already in the fourth year of college hell is not yet sinking in.

2. I realized that i've been missing that weird feeling, whenever i'm watching anime, for quite some time now. It's good to feel it again. :)

3. A little voice inside my head won't stop bothering me. I hope it would shut up soon.

4. I've been thinking about going to Taiwan for our OJT. *wishful thinking*

5. I think i still haven't gotten over last sem's hullabaloo.

6. I'm trying, but utterly failing, to like my subjects this summer. 

7. I miss writing fanfictions.

8. I hate the fact that i think that i'm finally maturing.

9. I feel like i'm missing something but i don't know what it is.

Well, after much thinking, i came up with this list which i may, or may not, elaborate on my future entries. Chances are, i won't be going to, but if i have to keep myself sane for a longer period of time, i guess i have no choice.  

Out of My League

Cos it's frightening to be 
swimming in this strange sea 
but i'd rather be here than on land...

yes she's all that i see 

and she's all that i need 

and i'm out of my league once again...

...

i don't know...

...i just don't know.

Last Minute Access

I only have roughly an hour and a half to pack my things but I'm still not in the mood to do so. I'm going to miss my laptop so I'm spending as much time with it as possible. Heh.

I hope I can still watch Hot Shot before I go. I haven't finished downloading it yet and I can't wait to watch it. I wasn't able to do the things I planned to do. I didn't even get to start plotting for that fic I was thinking of yesterday. I'll prolly write it tomorrow before I go to bed... Hmm.

Which reminds me... there's only one day left before summer class starts. I'm so excited... NOT. I don't feel like going to class yet. Besides, I won't be in class on Friday. We'll be leaving for Baguio. Weee. *sana walang homework*

So I guess I need to do a three-week update on Naruto when I get back. And I'll be back to downloading anime series by next week. Yay! I totally missed watching anime. I have a lot of catching up to do with the new series. Haha. 

I gotta go. Ate is telling me to pack my stuff. And I still have to transfer the Bare soundtrack to my phone. I'm going to play that for the whole 10-hour bus ride. LOL.

'til next week, then. XD


P.S.
Happy Birthday to my brother! He turned 17 today. And he owes me an oreo caramel sundae! I am so going to pester him about that. *evil laugh*

Where art thou?

My summer break took a vacation without me. That traitor. 

The only thing I can prolly check off my summer break things-to-do list is sleep considering that's what I've been doing since I got home. XD I can't blame myself, though. It has been raining since day1 of vacation and we all know that rain = cold mornings = more sleeping hours. Haha. And I don't wanna go out of the house since I'm too lazy to bring an umbrella with me. :p

Holy week was... well, busy, to say the least. An hour and a half long Palm Sunday Mass. Then there was a two and a half hour long reflection chorva on Tuesday. An hour and a half long Last Supper Mass on Thursday. Two and a half hour long procession on Good Friday. And the epic two and a half hour long Vigil Mass on Black Saturday. (I lost count of the readings after the third one. There were seven.)

I had to wake up early for the Easter Sunday Mass. It lasted for an hour or so but the announcements at the end of the mass took so long. ><. Then there was an Easter Egg Hunt for the kids. My brother gave me an extra egg, though. Muahaha. 

We went for a swim at Sorsogon. It wasn't actually part of my plans for the break but considering the hot weather, the opportunity was so tempting. My brother and I ended up reminiscing our swimming lesson days but that's another story. And I realized that the last time I went swimming was during our immersion way back on May2008. Almost a year ago. It wasn't even "swimming". More of "tampisaw sa ilog". Haha. 

Anyway, I've lost my train of thoughts. Phail. They're ganging up on me at Plurk. I need to redeem myself. Haha. I still need to pack my things and back up my files in my laptop. I won't be with Kuro-chan for the next three days. I'm going to miss him. 

Mr. Insomnia is Overstaying

Dear Mr. You-Shall-Not-Sleep Insomnia,

This is to inform you that you have been hanging around for too long and have now outstayed your welcome. I hope I'm not being rude in saying that you really, really need to go now. I barely had four or five hours of sleep last night and I wasn't able to get an eye-shut the whole day, thanks to you.

I know you missed those sleepless nights during the last two weeks of the semester and that I have completely forgotten all about you when summer break started. I am not sorry for that, though. We are all entitled to our well-deserved sleeping hours after that hell of a sem.

Anyway, I'm just saying that you leave me alone for now and go bother someone else 'cause I'm about to snap because of lack of sleep. Rest assured, we are going to have lots of bonding time when summer class starts.

Thank you and I'm looking forward to getting rid of you.

yours truly,

bubbles 

Coin Flip

Okay, so I'm back to my dilemma of accepting the EB position or not.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't even remember why I ran for the AVP position. Sometimes, I swear, it was just to amuse myself but something's telling me it was more than that. I had a cause. I just don't know where it vanished to.

So I went through all that trouble to run for AVP. I barely survived, but managed to pull through, a four-hour long miting de avance. Got disqualified a day before the elections. Moped for who-knows-how-long due to the unexpected turn of events. And finally, got over all that drama. 

Then they offered me the VP position. I didn't know what to say. Half of me wanted to accept it but the other stubborn, more reasonable half is saying no. I've thought about it a lot. I've weighed the pros and cons. I really don't know if I can handle the responsibilities of being a VP. I know the other members of the EB are there to help out but I'm not fit for that kind of job. I just know I'm not. Then there's still the slap-in-the-face, wake-up call from last semester. After that effed up sem, which left me depressed and disappointed with the results, I know I needed to focus more on my studies. I can't afford to take any extra load. So even though I really wanted to take up the challenge, I turned down the offer with hopes of not regretting that decision later on.

But now they're offering me the original position I ran for -- AVP for Academics. I am torn. I've been thinking about it. The only thing that I was scared of when I was running was the fact that there's no one running for the VP position, and that I will be forced into that position if ever I got elected. I also did not accept their offer of the said position because I didn't think I would be able to handle it. So what's keeping me from accepting the AVP position? The fact that my VP would be an underclassman? Well, I don't think that's much of an issue. I'm okay with a junior ordering me aorund. We're prolly of the same age anyway. Maybe it's just another case of being scared of committing myself to work for a long time. I've always been a quitter. I know I am. And this time, if ever I accept the position, I know there's no turning back. I just can't quit half-way. I know there's no way I can say "hey, I don't like this job very much. Go find a replacement for me." That just won't do.

I need to come up with a decision. They're not gonna wait for my reply forever. Please, let me have an epiphany.

totally effed

Disappear – yeah, well, you wanna try
Wanna bundle up into some big ass lie
Long enough for them to all just quit
Long enough for you to get out of it

...i don't even want to explain myself.

psh

...

...

...

putangina.

OTRFK

i died.

i died.

i died.

<3

i should be thankful...

...that even if last sem turned out to be a hell for us, i was able to get through. 

i shouldn't be asking for more.

this is what i deserved.

i should be happy.

...

should i...?

or should i not...?

...

...

...

i hope i'm making the right decision...

tic toc...

Patience is certainly not in my dictionary today.

It's the last episode of BBF and i can't wait to watch. But the internet's so damn sloooow. TT_TT

So far, i've watched half of the episode and for the whole first half i had the mantra of "PUTANGINA MO BITCH!! BITCH BITCH BITCH!!! DIE YU MI DIEEE!!!"

Ahem.

I'll just jot down my reactions for the last episode:

• That Yu Mi bitch is freakin' annoying. Even her counterpart in the original Meteor Garden (TW) series wasn't that much annoying. Ugh. Bitch. I wanna give her a pretty damn hard bitch slap. The series aside, kudos to the actress for making her character so hate-able. Haha.
  
• Ji Hoo! I wanna give the poor guy a hug. C'mon, give the guy some luuuurve.
• Jun Pyo and Jan Di's scene by the pool was so heart-breaking. And the background music was so sad. *tears* But even after all that drama, i was still able to notice how pretty Jan Di's sandals are. LOL. It's not my fault, though. They focused the camera too long on her feet! :p
• Jun Pyo does not know how to do CPR! lmao. wth is wrong with me. I keep on focusing on the minor stuffs. Haha. But i can't help it! They shouldn't have shown that flashback of Jan Di giving Jun Pyo CPR. They made it more obvious. :))
• Kyaaaaa~~!! Jun Pyo proposed! He freakin' did! Woot. <3
• Aww, the old hag isn't much of a hag anymore. Haha. And she smiled! whoah, just whoah... XD
• Ji Hoo with glasses = HOT, sizzling HOT.
• Saying Goo Jun Pyo is cool is redundant. 
• The last scene in the beach made Jun Pyo sparkle. Vampire, rawrr.
• Ooooh, look. The F4 were all sparkling. I knew it. They're all a bunch of vampires. Hahaha

Ji Hoo ended up with no one. Aww. But at least his love life got a bit spiced up. Woo Bin wasn't even paired up with anyone, the poor guy. And Yi Jung! He and Ga Eul totally makes me melt. The SoEul love team needs to have their own show, seriously. Haha.

The ending was great, although it was a bit rushed. I hope they make another season. Shout out for BBF season2! Lol. Show us more Jun Pyo-Jan Di romance! They're not even married yet. I want to see a wedding! And i want to see more of SoEul. They can't let it end just like that. And give Woo Bin a love life, for pizzakes. As for Ji Hoo, they can just leave him to me. I won't mind, really.  XD

Anyway, kudos to all the cast and crew of BBF! That was some awesome series. I only hope they could extend it. Haha. Bottoms up for the next season! (wishful thinking)

pitter patter

the soft pitter-patter sounded like music to my ears
and the wind has wrapped me up in a hug
a lightning struck not from afar
offering light for a few seconds

the music has long stopped playing
and i'm stuck here in this darkness
warming up to a cold embrace
as my soul is drenched in lost hope...