I Knew It

I knew I shouldn't have gone home before I have finished my philo paper. I've lost all my train of thoughts already and it's kind of hard to get in the mood again. *sigh*

This is pathetic. I know I'm cramming yet again but... well, it's kind of hard to drop something you've get so used to for that past, oh, I don't know, 8 years? They should prolly start having an International Cramming Day for all the notorious crammers out there.

I seriously need to get on with this but my brain refuses to work with me right now. Bloody traitor. And I know for sure that I need all the sleep I can get if I even want to survive my day tomorrow. I'm going to bed by 1:30 whether or not I'm done with this.

Edit:

Okay, so I just found out that I'm working on the same fragment as one of the students whose paper our teacher thinks has a high level of philosophical insight. Honestly, I am more concerned than pressured. Concerned in a sense that our teacher might think that I got my idea from that sample paper, which, by the way, I did not. I've been thinking about this for days already even if I only started putting it into words yestersday. And I absolutely have no luxury of time to come up with another insight for another fragment. I just have to risk this. I just find it freakeningly disturbing that not only do we have the same fragment, but we almost have the same issue as well. Do most teenager Christians suffer from this kind of faith instability? I certainly hope that's the case 'cause I really don't want to be accused of plagiarism or something. *shudder*

Get the Gears Moving

I'm supposed to be doing my philosophy paper right now but I can't seem to get in the mood. I haven't written anything remotely worth thinking about for a while now and I seem to have forgotten how to do so. And it certainly does not help that I seem to have lost my passion for writing.

I need to get my mind off of things. I've been thinking about a lot of things recently and I don't know how to obliviate them from my mind, even for a while. I just can't seem to think properly right now. And the noisy group in front of me is certainly not helping. Can't they just freakin' go and leave me here to mope? I so need an alone time. It'll prolly make thinking easier. Pffft.

Anyway, I really don't have much to say. I prolly should go back to finishing my paper. I still need to get my ass home. Although I really don't mind staying here at school... but I reckon it'd be too freaky to be walking home when all the lights in the school have been switched off. *shudder*

Okay, allow me to be sidetracked. It just feels nice to be able to talk again to my bestfriends after a loooooong time of having no communication with them at all. Well, at least I've been exchanging text messages with Cy recently but I haven't really been able to talk to Bes since... I actually don't know when. ><. So yeah, even if our conversation today was just a few 'hi-hello's and what have you been up to?'s, I'm quite glad we had the chance to talk. :)

I really ought to be doing my paper. Now that the noisy group has finally left, I think my brain cells would be able to resume working. Wish me luck. XD

Basta.

Basta, yun lang yun.

Bow.

Birthday Blues

For some unknown, strange reasons, I'm starting to dread my birthday...

It just feels weird. I thought I was over this already. Apparently, I was wrong...

It's not even an issue of turning a year older. More of a there goes another useless year of my life feeling. Oh, and I am so not being emo, thank you very much. I prefer to call it random burst of unwanted thoughts. Definitely harmful to my mental health. Tsk.

No Voice

I wanna run through the halls of my high school

I wanna scream at the

Top of my lungs

I just found out there's no such thing as the real world

just a lie you've got to rise above

First Days Never Die

Technically, I don't have classes today but I still ended up being in school before seven freakin' thirty. But I guess it was kind of... fun?

• I wasn't sure if I was really able to get some sleep. It felt like my brain was half-awake the whole time, writing some ridiculous story in my head. It must be because of the fic I was reading before I went to bed. Weird.
• I don't mind waking up early and being sabaw all day just as long as... *smug face*
• I definitely hate kroo kroo moments.
• The Math Department's secretary and the maintenance people at CTC thought I was a freshman. Woot~!
• I was bored. I was trapped in Faura due to the heavy rain. The first year ECE students don't have a teacher yet. I ended up taking over. Awkward, i tell ya.
• I had to stop at the middle of the overpass because I was so hungry, I didn't think I can make another step. I bet i looked stupid.
• I had lunch at Shakey's with Chaii, Via, and Elaine. JP and Miguel soon followed because we couldn't finish the food by ourselves. LOL.
• I tried to be civil. Really, i did.
• Natulog ako ng bonggang bongga. Period.

THE END. *bow*

Exorcise Me

gawds, i think i'm possessed by some emo spirit and i can't effin' get rid of it. :|

and Kris Allen's version of Falling Slowly playing (repeatedly) in the background is so not helping...

and looking at photos from before is definitely not helping either...

and staying up late and thinking about random things is just making it worse...

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...i so need an exorcist.

Tantrums. Bow.

nag-tantrums ako kanina...

as in yung solid na tantrums na umiiyak na tapos sinisipa at binabato na yung mga gamit.

wala lang.. trip-trip lang.

gusto ko lang asarin si kuya. haha LOL

pinagbigyan niya rin naman ako after 30min or so ng pagta-tantrums..

..at siya pa ang nagligpit ng kinalat ko.

haha, san ka pa? WINNER! :))

eh?!

It occured to me just now that Shia LaBeouf reminds me so much of Naruto. yeah, Naruto -- the blue-eyed blonde anime guy.

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I don't know why... I just do.