Another Naruto Post

I haven't cried over an anime for a long time now. I was definitely caught off guard by the latest episodes of Naruto (119-120). Damn. I certainly didn't expect a flashback.

Although, if I must say, this is definitely one of the few flashbacks that I really loved. We've all been waiting for an explanation about Obito's death and how Kakashi got his Sharingan, and now, we finally got one. I just never expected Kakashi to be such a real asshole before. He was worse of a jerk than Sasuke is, seriously. But he's a whole lot better now. He seemed to have picked up after Obito's character, somehow. (Good for him. XD)

Obito, on the other hand, is a different story. He's somehow like Naruto. The goggles definitely reminded me of Naruto but that's besides the point. I guess you just have to watch it to get what I'm saying but really, you'll find it hard not to think they're actually alike in some ways.

For a two-episode character, I really, really liked Obito. You'd see how much his character has grown in just that two episodes and that's saying a lot since it was only a two-day setting, I think. Perhaps that was what got me tearing up quite hard while watching it. He wasn't even given enough time catch up with the character change and they killed him off... It's just sad. TT_TT

I just hope this isn't a foreshadowing about what's going to Sasuke and Naruto. I mean, it would really suck of Naruto died because of Sasuke being a jerk. That wouldn't be fair. Perhaps if Sasuke wouldn't be so stubborn, he might actually have a character change as well. Haha, wishful thinking. Lol.

Anyway, both the manga and the anime are quite exciting right now. They got the gears in my head turning. There are just a lot of things going on and you can't help but speculate. But I prolly should start working on schoolwork now. I've wasted enough time already. Haha.

P.S.

I woke up to find my eyes slightly swollen from having cried a bit too much last night. Lol. So much for watching anime. Haha. XD

Time Turner

Do you know why people can't go back in time?

It's more than just the defiance of physics laws and whatnot...

It's because people need to learn from their mistakes and allowing them to go back in time would defeat that purpose...

...but I wish I have my own time turner, because apparently,

I never seem to learn from my mistakes.

Chaos

Sigh.

Can't I be emo for a while without thinking about schoolwork in the process? It just gets more depressing, if possible.

School has been keeping me down this past few weeks. Months, even. I just don't know what I want anymore. I thought I wanted this. I really did. But it always comes to a point where you want to start everything over but you can't turn your back on anything you have at the moment. It just sucks.

Right now, I'm just waiting for some alternate reality to swallow me up and take me to another world. I badly need a break from all things. I almost wish someone can obliviate me right now. I want to forget, think straight, and move on. Cause apparently, sometime during my perfectly normal life (if you can even call it normal), everything just got messed up and I'm still caught up in the rubbles.

Really, one would think I would be tired from thinking about this all the time. I am tired, but I can't get it off my mind. It's like it's stuck there to torment me every single fucking day of my already fucked up academic life. I just want answers. Answers to questions I don't even know. Answers that would get me out of this mess. Answers that would let me move on...

If I can take one step, just one step, would I be strong enough to take a step away from this madness that has been keeping me sane...?

I'll Keep on Dreaming...

A dream is a wish your heart makes

When you're fast asleep

In dreams you will lose your heartaches

Whatever you wish for, you keep...

A Procrastinator's Deal

To whom it may concern:

It has been brought to attention, that I, Kaori, had been suffering from academic fallbacks due to my current title as Mistress Procrastinator and Queen of all Crammers. I had been long living up to my reputation as such, however, the damage done recently is way beyond repair.

The Order of Two-Headed Turtles (aka the Procrastinator's Society) has decided to cut me some slack and allowed me to not fully carry out my responsibilities as the current Mistress Procrastinator. This does not mean, in any way, that I am giving up my title. However, in any case that a worthy successor should make himself/herself known, I would gladly step down from my throne.

In accordance to the decision of the Order, a contract has been drafted to make sure I will be back to my full-time position in no time. The agreement is as follows:

[1] Thou shall not play Restaurant City, Mafia Wars, and Waka-Waka nor indulge in answering FB quizzes except on weekends and free days (see definition of free day in Appendix).

[2] Thou shall not read nor write (nor even plot) fanfictions unless thou completely ran out of things to do.

[3] Thou shall not stalk random people over the internet especially Harry Potter characters (and a certain guy named Tom Felton).

[4] Thou shall only plurk to let people know that thou is still alive. Overplurking shall not be tolerated.

[5] Thou shall spend thy Mondays and Fridays at the library, catching up on the lessons thou missed because a) thou is not listening, b) thou is sleeping/daydreaming, c) thou really have no clue what thy teacher is talking about, and/or d) thy brain completely shut down during lecture.

[6] Thou shall fill thy notebook with actual notes instead of the usual nonsense scribbles and pathetic works of (f)art.

[7] Thou shall sleep before the clock strikes midnight. Staying up late will only be allowed during nights before exams and/or other academic-related matters.

The rules are summarized, but not limited, to the aforementioned. Any form of non-compliance to these rules will result to the termination of my title as resident Mistress Procrastinator and Queen Crammer. This agreement is only temporary until I am able to pull my grades up to a reasonable notch.

Sworn on the 22nd day of July, 2009, on my bed, in my room, somewhere in the world.

Signed,

Kaori

Mistress Procrastinator

Queen of all Crammers

Wake Up, Dear. Reality's Calling.

What would you have done, when all you ever wanted was to escape from the very thing that had been chasing you all this time?

Reality's been knocking on my door for some quite time now but I have yet to awaken from my deep slumber. It's just so easy to pretend I don't hear it calling and drift back to an endless dream of nothingness.

It feels confusing, being trapped in a thin line between reality and whatnot, when all I have to do is step out of it and choose a side. But it's not that easy... it has never been. It's like staying in the middle of a tug-of-war game, with both sides pulling, but you're not giving way to either because you're scared -- scared of choosing the wrong side... scared that they might consume you completely. So in the end, you just wouldn't let go. You just hold on to both of them and see who pulls harder because maybe, just maybe, you'll end up with the one who deserves you more.

It is cowardly, I know... but I have never really been that strong.

I'm tired of running around in circles. Tired of being caught up in situations I don't wanna be in. Tired of making up excuses. Tired of pretending everything is okay... that everything would be okay.

I wish it were that easy to just say "Hey, stop the world. I wanna get off..." and then the world would stop for me and I can just leave all this mess behind...

But just when I'm about to drift off to another peaceful slumber, I start hearing that small voice again saying "wake up, dear. reality's calling..." and I'll whisper back with a half-glare, "reality's such a bitch..."

Then, I'd be forced to get out of bed and face this unwanted guest. Invite her in for coffee and a one-sided conversation. I'll be sipping my coffee, nodding off my fake agreement from time to time, catching a few words but not really listening.

At the end of the day I'll look back and realize, "yeah, she's really a bitch... and look, she got puppies." And then, I'll just shrug it off, go to bed and get some sleep. It'll be another few hours before reality comes knocking on on my door again.

No Ink on my Torn Paper

This is one of the days that I really, really, really miss writing.

If I weren't so busy, I'd wish that my muses are still alive and kicking and bothering me every second about fic ideas and whatnot. It's just that... it's not only a problem about time. It seems that I'm not really that enthusiatic when I write about things these days. I seem to notice absolutely everything that I hate in what I write and more often than not, I only disappoint myself in the end.

Sigh.

I so need an awesome fic idea and an even more awesome mood to be able to get my writer soul back. I terrible miss it already.

14-15-16

The Wimbledon Finals is another one of the must-see games in the history of tennis. Roger Federer and Andy Roddick in a four-hour, 16-minute epic match with 16-14 games in the fifth set.

Whoah, just whoah.

It was totally worth watching. Well, considering it was the only game in Wimbledon this year that I considered watching, it should be at least worth my time. Haha.

Federer has finally beaten Pete Sampras' record of 14 Grand Slam titles with his 15th today. And he also got back his title of World #1 in tennis (aww, poor Nadal).

Kudos to both him and Roddick.

Okay, so I was really rooting for Andy Roddick ever since he won against Andy Murray in the semis. You can really see how much his tennis improved. And to think he was able to hold on his own against Federer in a match that lasted 30 games in the fifth set (considering their usual games only last three sets), he is definitely worthy of praise.

I think his last unforced error was a really big blow to him. He worked so hard to get that far only to give Federer the title. He was sooooo close to getting a Wimbledon title. Sigh. Better luck next time, I guess. He was still able to joke around during the awarding ceremony but he really looked so devastated afterwards. I feel like hugging him. Haha. XD

I'm looking forward to the US Open. Nadal, I shall see you there, hopefully. You were much missed during your absence in the Wimbledon. Get well, soon. :)

And Djokovic, you better train your ass off. I wanna see you reach the semis at least. You're still hot, though. LOL. :))

Where'd all my money go?

I only have coins in my wallet right now. All my bills were spent during our two-hour spontaneous trip to SM Marikina. I was only supposed to accompany Elisa buy a new string for her tennis racquet but we ended up staying there for two hours cause there were a lot of people who also had their racquet restrung. -____-

And I just realized how much of an impulse buyer I am. I see things I want, I buy them. Oh, my poor poor allowance, where art thou? I went into bankruptcy in just a span of few hours. My mom's so gonna kill meh.

I think I spent around P1500 today. And that shopping spree wasn't even planned! Gawds... I don't have money for next week. I have to ask my mom to send me my allowance on Monday. Sheesh. I don't wanna explain how my money went down the drain. T_T

In my defense, the whole floor was practically on sale! Some items were even 50% off. I couldn't stop myself from buying. -____- I bought a new bag (pink and purple). A jacket. Two shirts. A baunan. And a Waka-Waka slippers! I so so so love the slippers! And it's purrrple. I wanted to buy that Parisian flats and the other purple bag but I decided to spare my wallet from being totally drained. I promised to be back though. I think the sale would last until the end of the month. Muahahaha. *evil laugh*

Good luck to my wallet, though. Haha. XD

Kuh-Rah-Ming

I'm supposed to be working on my presentation in my innovations class but my topic has rendered my brain worthless for the time being. Well, it's not because it's lame. On the contrary, its awesomeness level is a notch short from reaching the top.

For someone like me who loves reading a LOT, Sony's Portable Reader System (PRS series) is definitely a gift from the gods. I usually spend hours in front of my laptop reading fanfictions, mangas, novels, and whatever else is available. The problem with using a laptop, or any other computer for that matter, is that my eyes usually get tired easily from the glare of the LCD screen. Not only does it affect my mood for reading, but it also adds to my paranoia of being blinded someday cause of overworking my eyes. What I love with Sony's PRS is that it's not made up of an LCD screen but of an eInk technology. It gives you the feel of reading straight from a book.

Okay, I just realized that my ranting lead me to blog what I'm supposed to be reporting tomorrow. Hahaha! I really should be finishing my presentation now. XD

P.S.

If anyone would be so kind to give me that PRS for my birthday, it's only around $300-$400. LOL. And I want the dark blue one. Please and thank you. Haha.

Busy Much

It's only the third week of classes and we're already this busy. I can't wait for hell week to come... Not.

Honestly, if we've managed to end ourselves up with this much work now, I can't even start to imagine how we'll be able to survive the coming weeks with long exams and lab reports due. Oral exams will also be an issue. Then the increasing number of readings for the core subjects. Not to mention papers and group reports. Just the thought of it is enough to make me feel all stressed out. Sheesh.

Anyway, I was supposed to list down some of my things-to-do (just like I did before). I don't know why but somehow, I'm pressured to actually start doing things when I list them down. So, yeah.

[o] elc141.1 research paper -- so-so.

[x] tcom121.1 homework -- done!

[ ] ece161 presentation

[ ] philosophy homework

Well, it's a pretty short list but it needs a lot of time. I'll start working on my paper now. Hopefully, I can finish half of my presentation in my innovations class before I call it a night.