I'm not sure why you felt the need to explain things to me.

But thank you.

Funny, I didn't even know I was feeling bad until you made it better.

Of Sleeping Potions and Weird Dreams

After our "field trip" yesterday, I was so tired that I literally dragged myself to bed at a little past seven in the evening without bothering to eat dinner. I had more or less 12 hours of sleep last night but I woke up after every couple of hours, maybe because I'm not used to sleeping that long anymore (and at night time, at that).

I also had several dreams last night. The first one was weird enough to keep me up for some time after I woke up from it. Well, it wasn't really out-of-this-world weird but more of an out-of-the-blue sort of weird. I'm still not sure what he was doing in my dreams. Hell, dream or not, I have absolutely no fucking idea why he was sleeping in my bed, in our house. He just took the definition of 'weird' to a whole new level. :|

Anyway, I'm just a bit upset that of all people, it was him who showed up so suddenly in my dream. I'm getting used to hot anime guys appearing in my dreams that it caught me off guard a normal guy took their place. Sigh.

On a slightly different note, I've been having way too much sleep today. As if twelve hours of sleep wasn't enough, I managed to fall asleep in a hammock under a tree earlier today. It was lovely, though. The shade of the tree was welcoming and the cool breeze was absolutely refreshing. This had been an ideal lazy Sunday afternoon. :)

It's So Damn HOT

I want to take my clothes off.

Hahahaha. This is exactly the reason why I can't post this in my tumblr or twitter account. ;))

But really, the heat is driving me craaazy. I even have to put up my hair in a stupid high bun. And if only I wouldn't look even more stupid hugging the electric fan, I swear I would do it. The other day, I was wearing an oversized jersey (I stole it from my brother's closet) because I figured out it would be less hot that way since it has tiny holes in it. Haha. Well, it did lessen the heat somehow. :D Unfortunately for me, my brother wasn't so happy about me stealing his jersey. Boo, that.

And now, I'm thinking of having an escapade to somewhere... cooler. And although the beach sounds tempting as it is, I have to say no simply because I really can't stand the sun right now. Hell, I'm practically imposing house arrest upon myself just so I can escape the scorching heat of the sun.

Okay so the escapade wasn't really possible, unless my bestfriend shows up again in our front door to take me away to some island somewhere (yes, she really did that. my parents couldn't say no. ha!). But I really am planning to do something for the rest of my summer vacation other than having anime marathons and reading fanfictions. Maybe I'll go back to writing. I owe my blogger a lot of stories. And maybe I'll take up my mom's suggestion on that long due driving lessons that I should have had before but hadn't because I was too scared shitless to try (not that I'm any less scared now but it's worth a try). And maybe, one of these days, when I actually had a proper sleep, I might join my brother with his 4am jogging trips up a nearby hill.

Yup, that is my plan for now. :D

I might or might not have been feigning sleep so that I can have an excuse to lean on your shoulders.

Haha, nah. I really was knocked out cold like a polar bear that time.

Seriously, I don't like you.

But you make my heart go *badump**badump*

I really shouldn't feel bad about being honest.

I shouldn't regret that I told the truth.

When it comes to you...

I always find it hard to admit that I do miss you.

Sigh.

Scattered Thoughts

I've been meaning to write an update sooner but I've been busy. And a lot of things are crossing my mind lately. Random thoughts, random memories, random nothingness. I wanted to write about all of them but I always run out of words. Or maybe no words can ever express them. I'm not really sure.

Right now, I'm just a bit numb. From missing a lot of people, maybe. I miss school (not so much with the classes, but yeah). I miss my friends. I miss having fun. I miss talking to people in person. I miss the feeling of not missing anyone/anything.

Just this one time, I'm going to admit that I miss them. I'm not even going to pretend that I'm not sulking because it's pretty obvious that I am. And that's all I have to say, really. I've been much too human today than I usually am.