4 days to go before freedom

Well, temporary freedom, but still freedom nonetheless. I can't wait for this semester to end. But there are still a couple of requirements that we need to finish before summer starts.

1. TCOM 122.1 Group Report (Turbo Codes)

2. TCOM 122.1 Long Exam #4
3. TCOM 122.2 Lab Report (Hamming Code)
4. TCOM 151.2 Lab Report 4

5. TCOM 151.2 Lab Report 5

6. TCOM 151.2 Lab Report 6
7. TCOM 151.1 Case Study

Konti na lang. And I want that batch outing, please.

Have you ever cried because of someone else's pain? Shared the heart wrenching pain of the person you are with? If it is possible, it may be that you are truly inlove with that person.

Maybe I have before.

I'm OVER it.

But that doesn't mean I can't be depressed about it.

I knew by a long shot that I didn't stand a chance but I still fought on anyway. Now look where it got me -- brooding in the wee hours of the morning while watching series and movies. And I just realized that I have this healthy stock of heart-quenching-guaranteed-to-make-you-cry-and-leave-your-eyes-swollen movies that almost always come in handy on days when I wanted to angst but needed an excuse to cry.

And now that I have just finished watching My Sister's Keeper, I'm done sulking (sort of). I'll watch happier videos now.

Nostalgia

Yes, I'm supposed to be busy right now.

Yes, I'm supposed to be studying.

Yes, I have an exam later.

But this will only take a while.

After spending the day in front of my laptop and notebook, trying to decipher a totally new language in the disguise of TCOM, I went home to find my HS friends having dinner in our house.

We ended up singing random songs, playing the guitar and the piano, going a little crazy, feasting on home-made wicked oreos, going a bit more crazy, reminiscing high school days, playing "squabble", and just having fun.

And I realized just now how much I miss them. Their company. The fun. The crazy moments. The memories.

This is one of the moments I wouldn't trade for anything else in the world.

The "D" Word

I therefore conclude that I absolutely despise the "d" word.

Every time I hear that word, the air around me would immediately be contaminated with that deadly virus called awkwardness. It's stupid and it stresses me out. I try to act like I'm okay with it when in fact, I'm not. Well, it's sort of okay but not really. I just feel this animosity towards that word and the act itself. It's just... not for me. Like, that word and I in the same sentence would never go well together, no matter who or what the third person or object in that sentence would be.

So please, for the sake of my sanity, stop mentioning that word to me. It drives me crazy. :(

No strings attached

Funny, I thought I would have more time for myself now that I have let go of you.

But I guess I was wrong.

You still seem to have these invisible strings attached to me, controlling my movement against my will.

Is it too much to ask to let me decide for myself? To let me do what I want and not because you said so?

Stop being so unfair.

16 Days to go

And those sixteen days will probably be among the busiest days of my life. We only got our major subjects left but we're still busier than ever. I just want this semester to end. It's both the best and the worst semester of my entire college life so far, in terms of academics. I learned a lot and I actually enjoyed some of the things we've been taught during this semester but I guess the number of things I learned is indirectly proportional to the grades I'll be getting. Because yes, life is unfair like that. Sigh.

Well, it's mostly my fault anyway. I just feel bad about it right now because I know I could have done better. But instead of sulking over the past things, I might as well just focus on the rest of this semester. There's still a lot of things to do before this nightmare ends.

1. TCOM 122.1 Long Exam #3 [03.08.10]

2. TCOM 151.2 Lab Activity 7 [03.09.10]

3. TCOM 151.2 Lab Activity 8[03.16.10]

4. TCOM 143 FINALS [03.10.10]

5. TCOM 122.2 Lab Activity (Hamming Code)

6. TCOM 151.2 Lab Report 4 [03.20.10]

7. TCOM 151.2 Lab Reports 5, 6, 7, 8

8. TCOM 122.1 Group Report (Turbo Codes) [03.19.10]

9. TCOM 151.1 Case Study

10. TCOM 122.1 Long Exam #4

11. TCOM 151.2 Seminar Papers

I'm so fucking stressed right now, dammit.

What the fuck do you expect me to do?

Fuck this.

Set your fucking priorities straight, man.

Cause you know what, one of this days I might finally snap ang get tired of all your shit.

Damn this. Damn this all to hell.