Chaos

Sigh.

Can't I be emo for a while without thinking about schoolwork in the process? It just gets more depressing, if possible.

School has been keeping me down this past few weeks. Months, even. I just don't know what I want anymore. I thought I wanted this. I really did. But it always comes to a point where you want to start everything over but you can't turn your back on anything you have at the moment. It just sucks.

Right now, I'm just waiting for some alternate reality to swallow me up and take me to another world. I badly need a break from all things. I almost wish someone can obliviate me right now. I want to forget, think straight, and move on. Cause apparently, sometime during my perfectly normal life (if you can even call it normal), everything just got messed up and I'm still caught up in the rubbles.

Really, one would think I would be tired from thinking about this all the time. I am tired, but I can't get it off my mind. It's like it's stuck there to torment me every single fucking day of my already fucked up academic life. I just want answers. Answers to questions I don't even know. Answers that would get me out of this mess. Answers that would let me move on...

If I can take one step, just one step, would I be strong enough to take a step away from this madness that has been keeping me sane...?