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i don't know...

...i just don't know.

Last Minute Access

I only have roughly an hour and a half to pack my things but I'm still not in the mood to do so. I'm going to miss my laptop so I'm spending as much time with it as possible. Heh.

I hope I can still watch Hot Shot before I go. I haven't finished downloading it yet and I can't wait to watch it. I wasn't able to do the things I planned to do. I didn't even get to start plotting for that fic I was thinking of yesterday. I'll prolly write it tomorrow before I go to bed... Hmm.

Which reminds me... there's only one day left before summer class starts. I'm so excited... NOT. I don't feel like going to class yet. Besides, I won't be in class on Friday. We'll be leaving for Baguio. Weee. *sana walang homework*

So I guess I need to do a three-week update on Naruto when I get back. And I'll be back to downloading anime series by next week. Yay! I totally missed watching anime. I have a lot of catching up to do with the new series. Haha. 

I gotta go. Ate is telling me to pack my stuff. And I still have to transfer the Bare soundtrack to my phone. I'm going to play that for the whole 10-hour bus ride. LOL.

'til next week, then. XD


P.S.
Happy Birthday to my brother! He turned 17 today. And he owes me an oreo caramel sundae! I am so going to pester him about that. *evil laugh*

Where art thou?

My summer break took a vacation without me. That traitor. 

The only thing I can prolly check off my summer break things-to-do list is sleep considering that's what I've been doing since I got home. XD I can't blame myself, though. It has been raining since day1 of vacation and we all know that rain = cold mornings = more sleeping hours. Haha. And I don't wanna go out of the house since I'm too lazy to bring an umbrella with me. :p

Holy week was... well, busy, to say the least. An hour and a half long Palm Sunday Mass. Then there was a two and a half hour long reflection chorva on Tuesday. An hour and a half long Last Supper Mass on Thursday. Two and a half hour long procession on Good Friday. And the epic two and a half hour long Vigil Mass on Black Saturday. (I lost count of the readings after the third one. There were seven.)

I had to wake up early for the Easter Sunday Mass. It lasted for an hour or so but the announcements at the end of the mass took so long. ><. Then there was an Easter Egg Hunt for the kids. My brother gave me an extra egg, though. Muahaha. 

We went for a swim at Sorsogon. It wasn't actually part of my plans for the break but considering the hot weather, the opportunity was so tempting. My brother and I ended up reminiscing our swimming lesson days but that's another story. And I realized that the last time I went swimming was during our immersion way back on May2008. Almost a year ago. It wasn't even "swimming". More of "tampisaw sa ilog". Haha. 

Anyway, I've lost my train of thoughts. Phail. They're ganging up on me at Plurk. I need to redeem myself. Haha. I still need to pack my things and back up my files in my laptop. I won't be with Kuro-chan for the next three days. I'm going to miss him. 

Mr. Insomnia is Overstaying

Dear Mr. You-Shall-Not-Sleep Insomnia,

This is to inform you that you have been hanging around for too long and have now outstayed your welcome. I hope I'm not being rude in saying that you really, really need to go now. I barely had four or five hours of sleep last night and I wasn't able to get an eye-shut the whole day, thanks to you.

I know you missed those sleepless nights during the last two weeks of the semester and that I have completely forgotten all about you when summer break started. I am not sorry for that, though. We are all entitled to our well-deserved sleeping hours after that hell of a sem.

Anyway, I'm just saying that you leave me alone for now and go bother someone else 'cause I'm about to snap because of lack of sleep. Rest assured, we are going to have lots of bonding time when summer class starts.

Thank you and I'm looking forward to getting rid of you.

yours truly,

bubbles 

Coin Flip

Okay, so I'm back to my dilemma of accepting the EB position or not.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't even remember why I ran for the AVP position. Sometimes, I swear, it was just to amuse myself but something's telling me it was more than that. I had a cause. I just don't know where it vanished to.

So I went through all that trouble to run for AVP. I barely survived, but managed to pull through, a four-hour long miting de avance. Got disqualified a day before the elections. Moped for who-knows-how-long due to the unexpected turn of events. And finally, got over all that drama. 

Then they offered me the VP position. I didn't know what to say. Half of me wanted to accept it but the other stubborn, more reasonable half is saying no. I've thought about it a lot. I've weighed the pros and cons. I really don't know if I can handle the responsibilities of being a VP. I know the other members of the EB are there to help out but I'm not fit for that kind of job. I just know I'm not. Then there's still the slap-in-the-face, wake-up call from last semester. After that effed up sem, which left me depressed and disappointed with the results, I know I needed to focus more on my studies. I can't afford to take any extra load. So even though I really wanted to take up the challenge, I turned down the offer with hopes of not regretting that decision later on.

But now they're offering me the original position I ran for -- AVP for Academics. I am torn. I've been thinking about it. The only thing that I was scared of when I was running was the fact that there's no one running for the VP position, and that I will be forced into that position if ever I got elected. I also did not accept their offer of the said position because I didn't think I would be able to handle it. So what's keeping me from accepting the AVP position? The fact that my VP would be an underclassman? Well, I don't think that's much of an issue. I'm okay with a junior ordering me aorund. We're prolly of the same age anyway. Maybe it's just another case of being scared of committing myself to work for a long time. I've always been a quitter. I know I am. And this time, if ever I accept the position, I know there's no turning back. I just can't quit half-way. I know there's no way I can say "hey, I don't like this job very much. Go find a replacement for me." That just won't do.

I need to come up with a decision. They're not gonna wait for my reply forever. Please, let me have an epiphany.

totally effed

Disappear – yeah, well, you wanna try
Wanna bundle up into some big ass lie
Long enough for them to all just quit
Long enough for you to get out of it

...i don't even want to explain myself.

psh

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putangina.

OTRFK

i died.

i died.

i died.

<3

i should be thankful...

...that even if last sem turned out to be a hell for us, i was able to get through. 

i shouldn't be asking for more.

this is what i deserved.

i should be happy.

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should i...?

or should i not...?

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i hope i'm making the right decision...