Birthday Blues

For some unknown, strange reasons, I'm starting to dread my birthday...

It just feels weird. I thought I was over this already. Apparently, I was wrong...

It's not even an issue of turning a year older. More of a there goes another useless year of my life feeling. Oh, and I am so not being emo, thank you very much. I prefer to call it random burst of unwanted thoughts. Definitely harmful to my mental health. Tsk.

No Voice

I wanna run through the halls of my high school

I wanna scream at the

Top of my lungs

I just found out there's no such thing as the real world

just a lie you've got to rise above

First Days Never Die

Technically, I don't have classes today but I still ended up being in school before seven freakin' thirty. But I guess it was kind of... fun?

• I wasn't sure if I was really able to get some sleep. It felt like my brain was half-awake the whole time, writing some ridiculous story in my head. It must be because of the fic I was reading before I went to bed. Weird.
• I don't mind waking up early and being sabaw all day just as long as... *smug face*
• I definitely hate kroo kroo moments.
• The Math Department's secretary and the maintenance people at CTC thought I was a freshman. Woot~!
• I was bored. I was trapped in Faura due to the heavy rain. The first year ECE students don't have a teacher yet. I ended up taking over. Awkward, i tell ya.
• I had to stop at the middle of the overpass because I was so hungry, I didn't think I can make another step. I bet i looked stupid.
• I had lunch at Shakey's with Chaii, Via, and Elaine. JP and Miguel soon followed because we couldn't finish the food by ourselves. LOL.
• I tried to be civil. Really, i did.
• Natulog ako ng bonggang bongga. Period.

THE END. *bow*

Exorcise Me

gawds, i think i'm possessed by some emo spirit and i can't effin' get rid of it. :|

and Kris Allen's version of Falling Slowly playing (repeatedly) in the background is so not helping...

and looking at photos from before is definitely not helping either...

and staying up late and thinking about random things is just making it worse...

...

...

...

...i so need an exorcist.

Tantrums. Bow.

nag-tantrums ako kanina...

as in yung solid na tantrums na umiiyak na tapos sinisipa at binabato na yung mga gamit.

wala lang.. trip-trip lang.

gusto ko lang asarin si kuya. haha LOL

pinagbigyan niya rin naman ako after 30min or so ng pagta-tantrums..

..at siya pa ang nagligpit ng kinalat ko.

haha, san ka pa? WINNER! :))

eh?!

It occured to me just now that Shia LaBeouf reminds me so much of Naruto. yeah, Naruto -- the blue-eyed blonde anime guy.

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I don't know why... I just do.

MSE - defined!

MSE

- a subject designed to make students go crazy due to its unrivaled epic-ness

- equivalent to 499 pdf slides (just a little bit more to reach 500)

- approximately 27 pages (bond-paper sized) of hand-written notes

- more than 420 terms covered (and still counting...)

- makes up 30% of the class standing

- may or may not (usually not) be defeated by a venti-sized coffee

- can cause stress which, more often than not, lead to extreme fatigue and in worst case scenarios, catastrophic failures

WARNING: too much exposure to this subject may lead to an exponential decrease in the number of brain cells. it is advised to stay away from it as much as possible and to pretend it never existed.

almost there...

putanginang shet.

ayoko na mag-aral...

nakakaiyak sa dami ung MSE.

A Different Shade of Green

I felt sick ever since we had that quiz in EngMa this morning (yesterday, technically). It's just a mild headache but it won't go away. I tried to sleep it off but it was still there when I woke up. 

I hate this. I can't be sick. And I don't even know what to do with it.

Medicine is off the list. Sleep is not working either. I tried icecream, too, but it just got worse. Maybe chocolate will help...? Hmm.

If i still have this freakin' headache tomorrow, i don't think i'd be in school. But we have a quiz in EngMa (surprise, surprise) and a long test on Wednesday so i guess there really isn't much of a choice. And that other headache-inducing-subject, MSE, will also have another long test on Friday so, yeah, good luck to me and my pet headache.

I hope i survive this last two weeks of summer. I seriously need a break.

Pause. Slow-mo. Play.

To whom it may concern:

You have already taken away the fun in my summer.

Robbed me of my well-deserved sleep.

Trampled on my confidence repeatedly.

Crushed my hopes indefinitely.

Left me wallowing in my miseries. 

And now my brain cells are dying, if not already dead.

What more do you fucking want?

What more can you possibly do?

Make me go through this hell again?

I have had enough, thank you very much.

I shall have my sweet revenge when the time comes.