bubble notes

2012-01-13T20:59:00.000+08:00

I was so frustrated earlier. Because I was smiling while texting and it shouldn't have happened because there's nothing funny about what we were talking about. And I refuse to entertain the other reason that could possibly explain why I was acting that way. It's just... ugh. I don't even want to think about it. I don't even want to think that I'm thinking about it.

Looking Back at January

2011-12-21T00:05:00.002+08:00

2011. So I started the year watching and reading angst. Maybe that's why my whole year turned crappy. Well, sort of. January wasn't that great of a month for me. I was busy with school work, which I wasn't sure I could have handled considering my inability to concentrate for long periods of time and my apparent lack of sleep because of insomnia (which was probably caused by overthinking). I

Year End Reminiscing

2011-12-20T17:17:00.003+08:00

I had this wonderful idea of looking at how the year went for me so I decided I'm going to make a post for each month this year. I'm not really sure what I'm trying to accomplish by doing this but hopefully I'll figure it out by the time I'm done with it. And of course I'm also making a draft about my "Grown Up New Year's Resolution List". So there.

That moment when you get pissed off because someone unexpectedly made you smile.

2011-11-22T23:39:00.000+08:00

Well, I wasn't really pissed off that much. It's just that I wasn't really expecting anything (although I admit I was kind of still hoping) and it suddenly came out of the blue and I didn't realize I was already smiling from something so trivial and it disturbs me why I reacted like that in the first place. Le sigh. But I feel like I can finally move on now. I don't think he hates me after all.

2011-11-10T11:10:00.000+08:00

Happy RuHanaRu Day!

2011-10-18T02:32:00.000+08:00

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking When you fall everyone stands Another day and you've had your fill of sinking with the life held in your hands are shaking cold these hands are meant to hold Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong move along, move along like I know you do Even when your hope is gone move along, move along just to make it through move along, move along So a

2011-10-09T20:47:00.001+08:00

Love is the most important thing. It's not about how much you have, how much you know, or how much you do. It's about how well you love. Love is what matters most. How well I love, huh? I'm not really sure.

2011-10-09T17:14:00.000+08:00

I feel like I need to do this so I can finally move on. This will be the last, I promise. 19 days. 19 more fucking days until the Most Dreaded Day(s) of the Year. I know I'm running out of time. I know that. My heart is in a panic but at the same time, I just want to get this done and over with and move on to another phase in my life. This has been going on for far too long already and I feel

Manhid

2011-10-03T02:43:00.003+08:00

Okay lang kasi kung ako lang pero nadadamay na yung ibang tao e. Please naman, wag kang masyadong manhid. Hindi sayo umiikot ang mundo.

2011-09-26T02:19:00.000+08:00

Enough with the fake smiles.

I miss you, too.

2011-09-20T03:39:00.001+08:00

L-R: Me, Jan-Jan, Michael, Cameh, Chaii, a spot saved for Fran, Ronna, Jason, Benny, Railla, Miguel, Ryan, Gerrald, Mae I mean, U2. I miss my blockmates. I wonder when we can have another get-together like this one. It's like we're all over the place and we can't even sit for a dinner once in a while. Jan-Jan's in Saudi for his MS, Gerrald's in Singapore for training, Benny's in Canada,

We're past the point of no return.

2011-09-10T22:54:00.003+08:00

Pano kung ayoko na pala? Kung biglang suko na ako?

Things to do After the Board Exam

2011-08-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

watch: Naruto Shippuuden Natsume Yuujinchou San Bleach Katekyo Hitman Reborn Ano Hi Mita Hana Nurarihyon no Mago Death Note Ao no Exorcist Detective Conan No. 6 Hunter x Hunter Break Blade Psych (season 6) Game of Thrones (season 1 -2) read: Sophie's World Game of Thrones Quidditch Through the Ages Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them others: get passport learn how to drive (and

2011-08-25T16:44:00.001+08:00

"Life wasn't nearly as hard as he'd thought, it was dying that was the hard part. Living when you knew for sure it wasn't forever. That was hard." (Cinnamon, Beautiful World)

2011-08-22T01:17:00.002+08:00

sinabi ko naman sayo na wag na, pero ang kulit mo. last na yun, ha? lagi ka na lang nasasaktan e. please lang, teh, tama na, okay?

2011-08-20T03:01:00.000+08:00

Maybe you have to stop waiting for someone to come along and fix what’s wrong.Maybe you have to muster all the strength you have and find the courage to do this on your own. Maybe sometimes you just have to be your own hero and say: “I can do this”

Not Again

2011-08-15T17:35:00.000+08:00

Dear subconscious, Why? Why are you doing this to me? Haven't you ever heard of the phrase "move on"? Why do you have to keep on reminding me of people things I don't want to be reminded of? You are so damn unfair. It didn't even make sense. Why would I choose... them over hanging out with my high school friends? Why do they even have to be so nice at all? Sigh. You never listen to me, do

2011-08-07T04:36:00.001+08:00

かえでーにいちゃん、私はあなたのすべてを見逃す。かおり

Of Meteor Showers and Brandies

2011-08-05T20:49:00.000+08:00

(This is an overdue post, dated 15th of December 2007. I found this on a piece of paper when I was rummaging my things. Haha.)2:17 amSpontaneous parties are the best parties that could ever happen. No programs, no expected visitors, no plans whatsoever. Just pure fun. And it's the third time I drank this school year -- first one this semester. It's Fundador this time. lolIt's close to 5am already

Ayoko na.

2011-08-05T03:19:00.000+08:00

It's the same thing happening all over again. Did I do something wrong? Or is it because I didn't do anything in the first place? We've played this game before and I don't want to go through all of that again. You'd know you've been really hurt when you cried over something more than you've cried over the last Harry Potter movie.

2011-07-29T12:50:00.005+08:00

"Isn't it beautiful? I don't think I've ever seen the sky this color. I love it." "How can you say that? It's gray." "Does that make it bad? You always know it'll turn back to blue. It's comforting." "What if… it never turns back?" "Then learn to love it when it's gray."

The introvert in me is asking for space.

2011-07-27T16:12:00.008+08:00

I need my "me" time. ____________________ How much more accurate can my tarot reading get? Sigh. Am I being oversensitive? Or are people around me too insensitive to know I'm not in the mood? 'tang na loob. Leave me alone.

Ah, fuck this.

2011-07-05T02:15:00.002+08:00

I don't know how to start ranting without giving away the fact who I'm pissed off at lately. I don't want to name names, if I can. It's just... it stresses me up so much and I can't focus and it's stupid. Really stupid. I get pissed off at every little thing they do or say and it's unhealthy.Kung nakakamatay ang sama ng loob, I'd probably be dead by now. 私はこれができない。私はあなたと一緒にできない。私はここからにげたい。

Just a rant before I go to bed

2011-06-23T22:53:00.001+08:00

It's cold, I feel like I'm running a slight temperature and I'm getting pissed at a lot of things easily. Ugh. I'm not sure why I even check social networking sites (except for tumblr) only to be annoyed when I read about people post about how they're doing this or that and which only sounds like they're fucking showing off. We get it okay? We fucking get it. You don't need to proclaim to the

Lies!

2011-06-23T14:51:00.003+08:00

Dear subconscious, When I said thought I wanted to see him in my dreams, I was being sarcastic, you know. You didn't have to take me so seriously. And you didn't have to make him so nice in my dream. That's like defying all laws of gravity and whatnot. He is definitely not nice. Also, I think he doesn't have a younger brother. Stop making up fake people (even though I know it's a dream). I

Hello, lover.

2011-06-20T02:45:00.001+08:00

Oh, I meant "blogger". Silly me. I guess I haven't been writing much lately. Well, except for a few random snippets of my thoughts which rarely make sense at all. I miss writing. I miss it so damn much. But words are escaping me lately. I feel like my muses have abandoned me for good (I really hope they didn't, for the love of my sanity). See? This is hopeless. I've been trying to write

Hindi naman ako nagseselos eh.

2011-06-12T01:07:00.002+08:00

konti lang.

I made a new blog.

2011-06-11T03:10:00.005+08:00

I call it "An Idiot's Guide for the ECE Board Exam". It's a relatively useless blog, if I may say. Maybe I'll post some useless "tips" and random notes and whatsoever. God, I'm wasting so much cyberspace.

Everyone's calling me "Razzi" all of a sudden

2011-05-05T13:41:00.000+08:00

It's kind of freaking me out. No one except my high school friends calls me by that name until recently. I mean, it's fine with me but I just find it weird to hear someone who is not from high school call me that. But it's cool, don't worry. I just need to get used to it. Haha. You can call me by any name. You can even call me Mrs. Cumberbatch. But that's another story. :D

I've been Cumberbatched

2011-05-05T01:31:00.001+08:00

Mr. Cumberbatch, sir, If you would be so kind and get yourself out of my head, that would be very much appreciated. Review classes have started and I cannot afford to let you occupy what little of the remaining space I have in my brain. Oh god, you. Just stop being so… so… oh, I don’t even know what to call you. Thank you. Sincerely, Rachel

2011-04-19T17:56:00.001+08:00

hold on to that steering wheel and I'll take the passenger seat we'll have the stereo on full-blast and travel that road to nowhere

2011-04-06T02:00:00.000+08:00

my heart is yours to fill or burst to break or bury or wear as jewelry whichever you prefer

2011-04-04T23:37:00.001+08:00

I think I may have fallen in love again with a bastard which goes by the name of Izaya. I don't know what's the deal between me and bastards. I might be some sort of a masochist or something. On an entirely different note, I had a dream about Mario Maurer the other night. He's fucking hot. Lord, teka lang, wait, ang puso ko po.

2011-03-28T02:57:00.002+08:00

take the words away from me and I will be left with nothing

2011-03-24T21:59:00.004+08:00

kung matapang lang ako, sa'yo ko binigay ang puso blue rose ko.

Hold On

2011-03-22T01:17:00.001+08:00

I close my eyes and let myself drown in this whirlpool of regret reaching out for every bit of hope I can grasp --- hoping that someone would take my hand and save me from this hell I myself created but now I realize 'tis a place where the sun doesn't shine and now I'm drowning here in this sea of lie and pretence waiting for someone to take my hand --- and as I slip away from every bit of

2011-03-20T02:48:00.001+08:00

That was when I finally let myself cry. I cried for him. I cried for myself. I cried for what could have been. If only I had just found the courage to tell him. If only I had quit putting it off until someday. My someday had never come. I really should stop reading angst stories. T_T

The Pulse will be beating soon

2011-03-15T00:55:00.000+08:00

The Pulse Staff (L-R: Adrian, Kris, Vincent, Via, Rachel, EJ, AJ, Keir, Chris) Meet the staff of Pulse, the (supposedly-printed-but-turned-online) publication of AECES. We're going to release the online magazine soon so watch out for it! :) And now back to editing the articles. Dun dun dun...

The what-ifs and could-have-beens

2011-03-07T01:20:00.000+08:00

The most painful thoughts are the what ifs and could have beens. ...what if I finished it on time? ...I could have been part of that, too. But there's nothing I can do about it now.

2011-03-04T02:34:00.001+08:00

Dear ECCE 2011, You guys are the best. I love you. ♥ Like, major major. Haha. Love, Rachel P.S. Sorry emo. Kakatapos lang ng Pabaon e. Trololol.

Troll troll trolling in Omegle

2011-03-02T03:54:00.001+08:00

I was supposed to be doing some editing tonight but I got bored and decided to troll in Omegle instead. Well, tried to troll, that is. I ended up having a decent conversation with someone. I fail at trolling. Le sigh. He said his name is James. I was instantly reminded of James from Team Rocket. Ha. I also tried trolling using Disney song lyrics. It was more successful than the previous one, if

2011-03-01T20:40:00.002+08:00

Dear people-who-make-me-smile-even-when-we're-miles-apart, Thank you. It means a lot to me. I love you. Much love, Rachel

2011-02-21T03:00:00.002+08:00

She sits there with a cup of coffee, a book in hand. Minutes passed, a page of the book is turned. She glances at her watch and takes a sip of her coffee. People continue to pass her by. She watches them. They come and go. Some stay for a while, some leave quickly. She turns to her book again, drowns herself in the words. Falling, feeling. Another page is turned. "You're coffee's

Incoherent Thoughts

2011-02-07T03:08:00.000+08:00

This was a cryptic attempt to express my thoughts of shifting out of my course, dated two years ago. I think this was one of those times that I was seriously contemplating on shifting out and not just simply ranting about how I really don't like my course anymore and how much I'm fed up with it. I wouldn't have made it cryptic if it were only that simple. If all goes well, I would finally be

The Art of Being Pissed Off

2011-02-06T04:18:00.001+08:00

It's an art. Because I said so. And it takes years of practice to master it. Not days, years. Because it wouldn't be that nice if you spend everyday of your life looking like you've got a stick shoved up your... uhh... nose. First you start with... [1] a cold shoulder Ignore people. Speak in monosyllables (if not at all). Reply with nods and shrugs. then... [2] be indifferent Pull on a

I just made a scene in McDonald's and along Katipunan.

2011-02-01T01:52:00.007+08:00

I should feel like an idiot but I don't really care because I'm fucking pissed and I don't give a flying fuck about anything right now. Walking out is one thing. Walking out without giving a fuck if I leave my laptop and wallet behind is an entirely different thing. Yes, I was really pissed beyond reason.

2011-01-31T18:20:00.001+08:00

あなたとこのをできれらない。

A Little Bit of Motivation

2011-01-31T03:07:00.009+08:00

I need things to look forward to so I can get through the whole of February, which I think would be the hellest of all the hell months I have ever been through. Having said that, here's my things-to-do-list for March: catch up on anime/mangas cooking lessons with Momi Mae [03.15/16] ice skating at Mall of Asia with batchmates [03.09] try Fuzion's smoothie with vodka write fanfictions continue

The Final Countdown

2011-01-28T03:50:00.008+08:00

So I listed all the requirements I need to get done before February ends. Just looking at it makes me want to turn back now. Le sigh. But this is it. It's the last of the hell months before we can finally graduate. Wish us all the best of lucks. TCOM152.1 1. quiz (feb19) 2. project (feb21) 3. finals (feb24) 4. bonus paper (feb24) TCOM152.2 1. project (feb21) TCOM126 1. long test (feb21) 2.

Freefall

2011-01-22T01:53:00.000+08:00

Really, if I had wanted to be suddenly plunged into mid-air, I would have signed up for a bungee jump experience. I can't remember giving you permission to push me off a cliff.

Do you get some kind of thrill out of being an asshole?

2011-01-21T01:15:00.000+08:00

Or are you deliberately being one just to piss me off? If you're doing it on purpose, it's working really well. I mean, you're the only one who have ever pissed me off using earphones, anyway. That has got to be an accomplishment for you, isn't it? If it's war you want, then I'm gonna give it to you. I swear, before the year ends, I am going to find an excuse to punch you in the face. Maybe

Four Stars for Three Idiots

2011-01-18T01:44:00.000+08:00

This is exactly the kind of movie people need to watch before they enter college. (I will edit this later when I'm more coherent.)

Of Banoffee Pies and Short Notes

2011-01-16T16:49:00.003+08:00

You still owe me a slice of this, darling. Glücklich Geburtstag.

2011-01-14T02:34:00.002+08:00

Dear You, Remember when we used to talk about cupcakes and whatnot? Or how it would be lovely to have a tea party out in the garden? Or how you're so good at baking and how I'm just not made for the kitchen (I'm still waiting for that banoffee pie you promised me, you know.)? Remember when I just got out of the hospital and you told me to 'get well soon'? Or how I kept on saying the same

Bipolar

2011-01-10T20:20:00.003+08:00

"Sometimes I am inclined to believe that I really am bipolar." That's what I wrote on Dexter's Facebook wall last night. He brainwashed me into thinking that I am one. Well, it isn't that bad, knowing that he's just as bipolar as me (maybe worse), but what the hell. Here's what urban dictionary has to say about being bipolar: Seriously, these mood swings are a**-fuck crazy. See my last post?

Of Childhood Blues and Lego Crews

2011-01-10T17:28:00.001+08:00

Last night, I had this sudden urge to play Legos. I really, really wanted to, that I was almost crying tears of want. I even considered calling my mom (at 11:35 in the evening!) just to tell her to send it through LBC. But then again, I don't have a good enough excuse for having it mailed so suddenly. Well, aside from my weird urges to relive my childhood, that is. Anyway, Kelvin replied to my

My Tear Glands are Fine

2011-01-08T02:44:00.000+08:00

I was kind of getting worried that my eyes are getting dry easily lately and that I wasn't my usual cry-over-the-simplest-things self and I thought that maybe there's something wrong with my tear glands or that I might be getting a little bit too unemotional (which I'm not sure if it's a good idea or not). But those notions were shot down the drain after I've finished watching Parent Trap. This

And my Horoscope says...

2011-01-07T19:59:00.003+08:00

"Watch your health all month but mainly near January 4 and 19." Does it really have to be so specific? Haha. "It is no wonder you fell in love with a Pisces; this is one of the most heavenly matches for you because you share a near-psychic ability to communicate." (astrologyzone.com) What the hell. Hahahaha. Now, that is simply epic. But my tarot reading tells another story: "The Tower

White Lies

2011-01-07T16:48:00.001+08:00

They ruined your face. It would’ve been almost impossible to recognize you. With your right eye shut closed and your cheeks spread so wide, you couldn’t have possibly been uglier than a toad. But I know it’s you. Even with my eyes closed I would know if it’s you. You can dye your hair red. Or hide behind all the glamours you know. But those deep green orbs won’t lie. They scream of you – of

Of Countless Sheep and Sleepless Nights

2011-01-06T01:38:00.005+08:00

I cannot remember the last time that I had a good night's sleep. Probably that one time when I was absolutely dead tired, I was practically knocked out on my bed the minute I got home. And that was so long ago. I have had this "jet lag" syndrome ever since the semester started. Wait, no. Ever since sem break started and I haven't gotten rid of it even until now. It's driving me insane already.

Christmas break hangover

2011-01-05T01:41:00.000+08:00

I don't want to go back to school yet. >.< Because going back to school means that this is really it. That I would be swamped with piles and piles of school work, that we would have to really work on our thesis, that we would be graduating in a couple of months (hopefully). It's all happening too fast and I don't like it. I need more time.

UPCAT Results are out.

2011-01-04T04:55:00.000+08:00

I'm just a bit depressed about the fact that I never experienced that "giddiness/anxiety attack" high school seniors have while waiting for the college entrance exam results. I mean, four years ago, internet wasn't always readily available in school and you are one of the lucky ones if you get to bring a laptop in the dormitory. Even then, you can only access the internet in the computer room.

Bluer that Blue

2011-01-02T00:43:00.011+08:00

Ask me what I did yesterday. I went reading a fanfiction knowing fully well that it was angst, and that I am absolutely weak against angsts, which sent me crying my eyes out on the wee hours of New Year. And I was also bailing my eyes out before the day ended because I decided to watch The Last Song halfway through watching I Love You, Man and it was a stupid idea because no matter how good the

Day 06 - Of Endings and New Beginnings

2010-12-31T04:58:00.029+08:00

To everyone who made my 2010 an awesome one, thank you. Admittedly, 2010 wasn't exactly a walk in the park but I had lessons to learn, sometimes the hard way, but I managed to pull through. It made me a lot tougher. I don't even cry as much any more (hence the need for computer eyedrops because my eyes are running dry quickly). The stress and pressure made me feel a lot older but not

I think it's quite sad...

2010-12-30T17:21:00.001+08:00

...that when I look at old photos I suddenly think "masaya pa ako dito..." Not that I'm not happy now but I think I was happier back then. More carefree. And don't give a damn about things that much.

Day 05 - Resolutions

2010-12-30T04:35:00.035+08:00

Doing a New Year's Resolutions list is silly. I don't think I have ever done anything I could actually cross out on that list. I don't like changes much. They rattle me and leave me disconcerted for a while. And they take so much effort to go through with. I would complain about how things are so repetitive and how boring they would get but somehow, I'm fine with it. Because then I would know

2010-12-30T04:14:00.000+08:00

And it pains me that I cannot write like I used to be... ...that my thoughts are unending but no words can make them real.

Day 03 - Accomplishments

2010-12-28T04:33:00.007+08:00

As far as accomplishments for this year can go, I'd say it has to be the fact that I finally made it to the dean's list (after five years!). Well, I did work hard for that (except for our thesis which was still sort of non-existent that time) even though Japanese was the only class I really did enjoy. And Sociology, occasionally (because of the field trip and unending jokes in class). On another

Getting Things In Check

2010-12-28T01:58:00.001+08:00

It hasn't been a week yet since Christmas break started but I think I need some reality check. School work's piling up already! D: And so, as always, I am doing this checklist to make sure I did not forget anything (I rarely check my planner these days). Here's my things to do before the year ends: CE180 project/homework JSP104 homework thesis (/wrist) update blogger (okay, so I owe my blogger

Day 02 - Friends

2010-12-27T04:31:00.005+08:00

Bes and Cy I've known them since we were in grade school. We used to hang out under this tree that we claimed to be our "secret hideout" (which really isn't that much of a secret because no one would miss that spot even if they blinked) and we promptly named the small clearing Hundred Acre Woods aka HAW. But I haven't seen them for a while now. I'm in Manila most of the year, Bes is here in

Last Three Days of the Year

2010-12-26T02:48:00.000+08:00

I stumbled upon another blogging "challenge" in tumblr and since it's about looking back to what has happened during the whole of 2010, I decided to do it. Day 1 (12.26.10) : Reflect Yourself about EVERYTHING. Don’t you dare miss a single fact. Day 2 (12.27.10) : Old and new friends, describe them! Day 3 (12.28.10) : Biggest Accomplishments Day 4 (12.29.10) : The Worst of 2010 Day 5 (

Signs of Being Computer-Dependent

2010-12-15T19:22:00.001+08:00

I caught myself doing something stupid again earlier and I remembered all those times I did something stupid which made me realize how much dependent to computers I really am. You are reviewing for an exam and you reach out for the mouse/touchpad/arrow keys to turn the page of your book. You are browsing through a real photo album and you hover your finger over someone who is not familiar to you

2010-12-12T12:08:00.002+08:00

For what it's worth, I want to talk and I really really miss you but I have no idea where in the world you are right now because you just left like you never even existed in the first place.

Jumpstart

2010-12-11T17:32:00.000+08:00

I can't get in the mood to do anything. This wouldn't be much of a problem only if it weren't for the fact that I have a paper to write and a video to conceptualize and create which are both due on Monday. The fact that I also have a kanji quiz and a skit presentation in my Japanese class on the same day is not really helping. And I'm also having some sort of a panic attack right now. It's just

A is for Alarm Clock

2010-12-02T02:44:00.000+08:00

I honestly need a good alarm clock. One that would make sure that I'm out of bed at least an hour before my class. It would have to be one without a snooze button, definitely. And something that would be pretty damn difficult to turn off.

Christmas Alphabet Wishlist

2010-12-02T02:34:00.001+08:00

I'm a bit delayed in starting my Alphabet Wishlist so I'll just post twice for a couple of days to catch up on all twenty six letters before Christmas. I'm actually having a hard time thinking what I want for Christmas so I came up with this kind of wishlist. It's pretty challenging, if I may say so. Haha.

False Accusations

2010-11-30T02:23:00.000+08:00

My friends from high school are deluded into thinking that I am actually in love, which I definitely am not, because of some of my tweets lately. It started with some lyrics from a Parokya ni Edgar song, Ted Hannah: "para kang kape, hindi ka nagpapatulog" In my defense, I was referring to my being nocturnal and insomniac in that particular tweet. The song played suddenly and I thought it suited

Dreamwalker

2010-11-29T18:09:00.000+08:00

It would have been a great dream if it weren't for him being there, too. I mean, who wouldn't get excited with a dream set in Hogwarts? But of course, the villain that he is, he had to go show up and ruin my dream for me. He wasn't even a villain in my dream! In fact he was so nice, it would be perfectly logical to assume that he's under the Imperius curse. Or maybe... this dream is some sort

Just my fucking luck

2010-11-22T15:38:00.001+08:00

Stuck in a room with you on the very day that I was avoiding you the most. Like, what the fuck? Seriously? I'm about to suffocate from the awkwardness in the air. Oh, I bet that would make interesting news. Imagine what people would say at my funeral. "Oh, that Rachel, how did she die?" "She got stuck in a room with the guy she dislikes the most and suffocated from the awkwardness." "The poor

Two words

2010-11-22T03:27:00.002+08:00

I've decided I'm not going to say it. Maybe I'm being stubborn but I don't want this to be even more complicated that it already is. So if it requires my silence to do that, then so be it. I won't be saying anything at all. But I doubt you'd even notice.

I'm abusing internet space

2010-11-21T22:29:00.000+08:00

I just made an LJ account. Ugh. Well, I'm not transferring my blog there. I still prefer ranting here in my blogger over my other accounts. I think I just need a new place to write... uhmm... literature. Hahaha, literature, my ass. It's an attempt to revive my muses, actually. They've been hibernating for so long now, I'm not even sure if they are still alive. I have written three 100-word

2010-11-20T16:03:00.001+08:00

To my future husband, I only want three children. Three! Anything more than that and I will castrate you. No, seriously. Don't think I wouldn't try. Your loving future wife, Rachel PS Oh, don't even ask how I came up with this. I think I just developed a slight phobia for rowdy kids.

random thoughts

2010-11-17T00:12:00.000+08:00

(this is a repost from my Xanga account dated almost three years ago) it took me a really long time to realize... ...that i can be a real bitch sometimes. ...that people are backstabbers in nature. ...that it's not gravity that pulls people towards the middle of the road. It's stupidity. ...that you don't have to take out the cubes to assemble a rubik's

I haz a new look

2010-11-12T03:44:00.001+08:00

I've been sleeping late ever since sembreak kicked in but even though school has started for about a week now, my body clock still hasn't returned to normal. It is a bit problematic because my eye bags are as dark as ever and unwanted facial hair are starting to show up! ...but then I thought it would be nice to grow a mustache for a change. I feel so manly now.

I am no Elizabeth Bennet

2010-11-10T00:42:00.000+08:00

And you, sir, are not, in any way, anything like Mr. Darcy.

A Request for School for Nocturnals

2010-11-09T02:31:00.000+08:00

To whom it may concern: In my honest opinion, the government should build schools for the nocturnals. As a highly experienced nocturnal, this kind of school will be most beneficial to those who find it hard to get up in the ungodly early hours of the morning and prepare for school. I speak for all of us who are victims of numerous lates and unplanned cuts just because we couldn’t force ourselves

House Arrest

2010-11-01T01:35:00.001+08:00

I'm having another bout of self-imposed house arrest. I could count the number hours I've gone out for this past week: Monday - 3 hours (the time we spent at the airport and the flight back home) Tuesday - 1.5 hours (we voted for about 20minutes and visited Lola's house) Wednesday - Saturday - I didn't go out (well, except for that 2 minute walk outside our house) Sunday - 2 hours (attended Mass

Finals Week Significant Learnings (aka Bloopers)

2010-10-27T20:02:00.001+08:00

Because my last year in college cannot go without any bloopers, especially during finals week. 1. ...on fascinating ceiling tiles. One thing I learned during one of my final exams was that there I are 172 holes in the ceiling tile above. I have never been more fascinated with ceiling tiles before. I even found it more fascinating than our exam. 2. ...on awkward silences. DSP final project

DouWata is LOVE

2010-10-22T02:00:00.001+08:00

I know it. You know it. Doumeki knows it. Watanuki denies it.

Of Drunk Guys and Wushu Sticks

2010-10-21T22:12:00.001+08:00

This day had been so spontaneous. And weird. And freaky. Around 3am earlier, a drunk guy managed to open the door in our condo unit. I didn't know that the door wasn't properly locked. Good thing there was a chain on the door that prevented him from completely opening it and entering the room. I was seated on the couch, watching xxxHOLiC when that happened. We weren't really expecting anyone so

And the Boredom Begins...

2010-10-19T14:01:00.001+08:00

[ONE] Who was your last text from? Via. Something about old school power rangers. haha [TWO] Where was your default pic taken? F308. We were supposed to be doing our thesis but I ended up browsing the internet. :P [THREE] Your relationship status? Single. But my heart is fully taken. Haha chos. [FOUR] Have you ever lost a close friend? No. [FIVE] What is your current mood? Bored but happy. :)

A Different Kind of Heartache

2010-10-14T20:08:00.000+08:00

I feel like my chest is going to burst from maybe too much sadness, too much stress, too much pressure, too much whatever-the-fuck-it-is-called. I just want it to stop. I can't handle this right now. I really can't. Okay, ang sakit ng heart ko. Yun lang talaga yung gusto kong sabihin.

Of Blue Eyes and Red Hairs

2010-10-11T10:11:00.006+08:00

Happy HanaRuHana Day! 10/11/10. I've been waiting for this day for almost nine years, you have no idea how ecstatic I am right now. I don't even know if I can put into words how extremely lucky I feel I am to be born in this millennium. I've always been a fan girl at heart and even when school work is pulling me back to reality most of the time, I've never been less of a fan girl. I'm just...

A Very Binary Post

2010-10-10T22:10:00.018+08:00

Somewhere in the world, people are celebrating this day because the date happens only once every one hundred years. Don't they realize that that is the case for every date, every single day? Well, I rest my case. I have my own reasons for celebrating. First is because it's Naruto's birthday. I'll gladly punch you in the face if you tell me that's a stupid reason for celebrating. No, don't even

Quick! Grab a jar, I'm melting!

2010-09-24T20:32:00.001+08:00

asdfawlerja;dnADLad.safnalkerwefn I felt like I just died and went to heaven. I wish I didn't go anonymous. ;)) I haven't heard from him in a really, really long time and I wasn't lying when I said that I miss him. I mostly miss him on days when I brood (like last night) and I wasn't really expecting a reply from him. It made me ecstatic that he actually did. Haha. *swoon*

Let's just stop this, once and for all

2010-09-24T01:48:00.002+08:00

I swear, one of these days, I might just punch you in the face and demand for a reason why we're not talking -- why you're not talking to me. There shouldn't have been a problem with us talking. You're just making things difficult. I just... don't know what else to say to you anymore. I'm tired of starting all the "small talks". I'm tired of the awkward silence between us. I'm tired of being

If I get any bluer than this, I'll turn gray.

2010-09-14T17:42:00.000+08:00

I'm panicking. I'm stressed out. I badly need a hug right now. And I need someone to tell me that everything's gonna be okay after tomorrow's hullabaloo is over.

Of Surprise Parties and Two Left Feet

2010-09-10T19:44:00.000+08:00

There was a surprise party for me and all my high school and college friends were there. And just when the party was about to end, the guys started lining up and they danced with me one by one (it was like dancing with your 18 roses for your debut). It couldn't have gotten any weirder than that. Ugh. The party flattered me. I mean, I'm not going anywhere or something. Maybe it's just a hangover

2010-09-09T12:19:00.003+08:00

LAST WILL AND TESTAMENT I, Rachel Anne Nayve, do proclaim this to be my Last Will and Testament. I hereby declare that: I. Should I die, I wish to be buried in a ninja outfit. After the rites of the Roman Catholic Church have been observed, my death would be celebrated by singing my favorite songs in karaoke while drinking beer or wine, to make up for all those times I wasn’t

Running in Circles

2010-09-03T12:19:00.007+08:00

I'm doing it again. Running away, that is. I just... don't feel like dealing with anything right now. It's easier this way -- it always has been. I want to dig up a hole and crawl in it, deep enough where the sun doesn't shine. Deep enough so I can't hear the footsteps of people walking above me. Deep enough that I can pretend I'm in another world. I'm not really sure what's wrong with me right