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i'm currently suffering from EBDS.

Excessive Boredom Depression Syndrome.

i mean, wtf is wrong with me?

do people normally get depressed from doing nothing?

this is so not right.

Extreme Boredom

I'm all alone in our house and I'm dying of extreme boredom.

I don't wanna watch tv.

I don't wanna cook something lest I burn down our house. *sweatdrop*

I don't wanna go out cause it's sort of raining.

I don't wanna sleep again cause that's the only thing I've been doing since I got home.

I'm running out of things to do.

I even made a FB account just so i can say i'm doing something. Heh.

I'm ranting -- first sign of boredom which is bordering the loss of sanity.

Im'ma raid the kitchen and come up with something... edible. 

Don't worry much, I know how to use the fire extuingisher. :p

Can't Get Enough of It

Why is it that i can't seem to get enough of Matt Doyle?

I'm back to listening non-stop to the Bare soundtrack. After that rough Finals week, you'd think I have totally forgotten about my addiction to Bare, but no, it seems to have intensified more because of the week-long deprivation.

Well, whatever. The soundtrack is awesome and Matt's voice is just godly. I can listen to it all day long and I bet wouldn't get tired of it. Haha. :p

Spring Awakening's soundtrack is just as awesome. Well, Matt's not in the audio recording but I like the songs. Totally Fucked is still my top fave. And then there's The Bitch of Living -- I totally love the arrangement. I'm starting to like And Then There Were None because of Moritz's voice. His voice is also love. X3

It's kind of weird that I'm listening to musicals lately. I have such a weird taste in music. Lol. I wonder how long it would take before I actually get tired of listening to Bare and Spring Awakening. Hmm..

home sweet home

i'm home, finally.

my dad and i left for the airport at the ungodly hour of four in the morning. i barely had three hours of sleep last friday night. tsk.

our flight was scheduled 6:40am but we were at the airport before 4:30. talk about being early. and i wasn't able to catch up with my sleep while waiting cause the seats were cold and uncomfortable. but once we boarded the plane, i fell asleep even before we took off. i was so damn tired my eyes couldn't take it anymore. but at least i did not forget to put my seatbelt on. haha.

got home around 9am and i dropped dead on my bed. i wasn't even able to change my clothes. i slept throught the whole morning. and afternoon. and part of the evening. well, actually, i wasn't planning on getting up anytime soon. i could have slept until the next morning or so. but my sister was throwing styrofoam balls at me. WHAT THE HELL... so yeah, i was forced to get up around 7pm. that was the longest power nap i ever had. 10hours! haha. and yeah, it was just a nap. if i were to sleep for real, it would have taken me more than 12hours. 17hours, at most. heh.

i totally miss the long hours of sleep. i think i'll be spending the first few days  of vacation just sleeping. haha. and then i'm going to have a movie/series marathon. i'm not sure if my driving lessons will still push through but i'll be looking forward to it. XD

anyway, i'm off to bed. even after 10hours of sleep, i still feel drowsy. haha. 

it's finally OVER

phew. i barely survived this semester. i hope the next semesters would not be as much deadly as this one. but i doubt it... 

nevertheless, FREEDOM at last!

as temporary as it will be, freedom is freedom is freedom.

and i will embrace it with much open arms. haha.

cramming days are gone.

sleepless nights are over.

caffeine will no longer be a need.

nosebleed incidents will be lessened.

curse-til-you-drop sessions will be prevented.

and my sanity will no longer be threatened.

(at least for the time being)

welcome back, my life.

in a few hours...

...we will have our well-deserved freedom.

6hours, 35min more to go.

i can't wait.

please lang...

...ayoko na mainis.

stop doing things that are making me pissed off at you cause i'm even more frustrated by the fact that i am going to be pissed at you.

so please, stop.

so pissed off

PUTANGINA NAMAN KASI, NAPIPIKON NA AKO.

pardon me for the use of such strong words but i'm just so pissed off right now.

maybe i'm just sleep-deprived.

maybe i'm just stressed out.

maybe i'm just frustrated.

maybe people can just be downright fucking annoying at times.

or maybe all of the reasons above applies.

this is plain bullshit.

not in the right state of mind

i freakin' thought my thermodynamics exam is on 9:30.

turns out it was scheduled 11:30-1:30.

and i'm wasting my time reading fics. whatta-loser. haha.

i hope i don't fail this exam.

i've got a feeling it's going to be a two-hour long daydreaming about faeries what-not.

*nuninuninu*

words cannot say it all...

i'm so tired of this fucked up semester.

but saying it in English is not even half as satisfying when you say it in Tagalog:

pagod

na

pagod

na 

ako

sa

putanginang

sem

na

ito.

Barely Living

I don't think I can survive this week.

It's only the first day of the Finals week (second week of HELL) and i'm exhausted. I don't have enough energy for the rest of the week. It feels like I'm going to drop dead any minute, which is not entirely impossible.

Please please please end this sem already. 

...and so hell shall start today.

I'm panicking.

Really, really panicking.

I have an oral exam in philosophy in 4 hours (at 10:45 later) and I forgot everything I've studied last night. I don't know if it was such a good idea that I had some eye-shut.

And God, I should be studying right now, not blogging. But I need to calm down. I can barely understand what I'm reading. Gah.

I need to get going. I need to prepare for this. It would be the third most embarrassing 15minutes of my life. 

Wish me luck.

Oh, special thanks to Alvin for the notes. And to everyone who wished me luck. (I feel like I'm going to face something drastically life-changing. Hahaha.)

Bubble Blues

I'm caught up in an angst bubble.

I felt depressed all of a sudden.

Is this even normal?

Maybe it's just from the lack of sleep and the cramming for my philosophy paper. Gawd, I would never do that again. I think it has done me enough brain damage to last me a lifetime. :|

I think this coming week would be the icing in my rotten cake. So much cramming to do for all the projects and final exams. Please, end this semester already. 

My brain has taken a vacation already. How can it just run away like that now that I needed it the most? Bloody traitor. Tch.

Frustrations

All the requirements are finally catching up to me. I can smell the storm coming. I hope it doesn't hit us so hard.

What's even more frustrating is that I am really trying to get those requirements done but in the end, it just won't work the way I want it to be. And I have no freakin' idea on how to fix it. We've spent so much time, effort, and brain cells on those projects only to find out that it's an utter failure. 

Sigh.

I really just want this sem to end. Please.

Abstinence

Wow, I can't believe i'm abstaining from watching BOF... and i'm not stalking Matt either! Hahaha.

That has got to be my biggest accomplishment for today. *grin*

I've also finished the theoretical framework for the last lab report. I've started with my philo paper, although it really doesn't make any sense at all. Lol. And i'm gonna start with the 111 lecture project after i'm done with this post.

It looks like I won't be getting much sleep tonight. 

edit:

I freakin' made the mistake of searching for pictures of Matt Doyle. *noooooo* I can't break my concentration. @_@

Totally Fucked

I found the theme song that would best describe this sem, if not my whole third year ECE life (well, except for summer. I loved summer.).

This is a piece from the musical Spring Awakening, entitled Totally Fucked.

MELCHIOR

There’s a moment you know…you’re fucked –
Not an inch more room to self-destruct
No more moves
– oh yeah, the dead-end zone
Man, you just can’t call your soul your own

OTTO (Spoken)
But the thing that makes you really jump
Is that the weirdest shit is still to come
You can ask yourself: “Hey, what have I done?”
You’re just a fly – the little guys, they kill for fun

GEORG
Man, you’re fucked if you just freeze up
Can’t do that thing – that keeping still

HANSCHEN
But, you’re fucked if you speak your mind

GEORG, HANSECHEN & OTTO
And you know – uh huh – you will

ALL
Yeah, you’re fucked all right – and all for spite
You can kiss your sorry ass goodbye
Totally fucked – will they mess you up?
Well you know they’re gonna try

MELCHIOR (Spoken)
Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah

ALL (Spoken)
Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah

MELCHIOR
Disappear – yeah, well, you wanna try
Wanna bundle up into some big ass lie
Long enough for them to all just quit
Long enough for you to get out of it

ALL
Yeah, you’re fucked all right – and all for spite
You can kiss your sorry ass goodbye
Totally fucked – will they mess you up?
Well you know they’re gonna try

Yeah, you’re fucked all right – and all for spite
You can kiss your sorry ass goodbye
Totally fucked – will they mess you up?
Well you know they’re gonna try

Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
Blah blah blah blah blah
Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
Blah blah blah blah blah
Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
Blah blah blah blah blah
Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
Blah blah blah blah blah

Totally fucked!


I got the lyrics from http://www.allmusicals.com/

I Am Going To Marry Matt Doyle

I'm so in love with him right now.

He's like a dream come true.

After being crush-less for several months now, I think I have fallen real bad for him. It was just his voice at first. After watching Bare and listening to the soundtrack (he recorded Peter's part), I can't seem to get his voice out of my head.

I guess I just fell in love with his voice the moment I heard it. But it's not just his voice. It's rare to hear someone who sings like he does. I can't even describe it. It's like you can actually feel what he's singing out. It has that kind of effect on me.

And after reading some of his blog posts, I can't help but like him more. I don't want to say he's this or that. I just think he's an amazing person.

I wish I'd get the chance to meet him someday...

...someday.

omgwtfbbq?!

whoah... just whoah.

I can't even find the words to describe the latest Naruto manga chapter.

What the hell was that Chibaku Tensei!? Pain totally scooped up kilometers of the earth and made a giant earth ball (whatever you call that). I guess Konoha got really wiped out this time, if not totally. It's just amazing how people still manage to escape from that kind of attack (durr).

Pain's power is insane but what happened after he captured Naruto was even crazier. He's gone up to nine tails already (okay, that just crushed my previous theory of the ninth tail appearing when Sass-uke's around. well, who knows, maybe he's just lingering somewhere near. hmm). Admittedly, Kyuubi scares me. He's got one helluva power.

I'm just a bit worried about Naruto. He really isn't thinking clearly right now. That whole shit talk about peace got to him. Stupid Pain. Tch. On the other hand, it was kind of refreshing to see Yondaime. I was really looking forward to seeing him appear in the manga. *fangirl squeal*

On a more serious note, it just occured to me now how it was possible that Yondaime was able to appear in Naruto's subconscious. I mean, isn't he supposed to be dead or something...? Or maybe he really isn't dead dead. Maybe he just locked himself in Naruto's subconscious. His line really bothered me: "The seal is set so that if 8 tails are released, i'll appear within your consciousness..." 

It's like saying that when he "died" sealing Kyuubi, it was just his physical body which died and whatever inner part of him is still very much alive and is just residing inside Naruto (side comment: gawds, what do they think Naruto is? a bloody container?? first the Kyuubi, then whatever it was Itachi force-fed Naruto, and now Yondaime?? ugh, this is too much for me to handle...). 

I want an explanation. I'm dying to know what Yondaime will say. I can't bloody wait for the next chapter. *nuninuninu*

I'm off to do my histo paper. Ja.

Another busy night

I only have two goals tonight, but they are major:

[o] histo group paper -i'm gonna finish this one tonight. XD
[x] finalize 111 lab project - implementation na lang. weee.

I really need to accomplish these tonight. I'll be busy with other subjects for the rest of next week. :|

I must...

...stick to my schedule.

Lots to do. Lots to do.

I can't keep track of things.

I really need to stick with my planner.

For today, I must:

[x] write philo paper - done!
[o] start with histo paper - i promise i'll do it later. swear. 
[x] finalize 111 lab project - it's all i can do for now. i don't know how else to fix it. :|


I won't add much to the list cause I prolly won't end up doing them. So as to not disappoint myself, I'll keep my list short and do-able. Heh.

I'll update on my progress later. *nuninuninu*

Oh, and btw, I'm still high with Bare. *lalala*

edit [2:29am]:

well, two out of three isn't bad... i'm actually surprised i was able to do something. haha. weee.

hassle

cause you're such a hassle....

...and i'm such a bitch.

putangina naman kasi, ONE-unit subject ka laaaaaaaaaaaang!!!

nakakaasar. nakakapikon. nakakapanggalaiti. nakaka-highblood ka na.

bwiset.

edit:

reasonable, my ass, you asshole!

I Need a Boost

I'm running out of time and I'm still not doing anything. :|

There are only 9 school days left before Finals week and there are still a lot of things to do. Projects, papers, lab reports... Gawds, I just want to get this over with.

I need a push, a boost, a motivation... anything.

I'm still sort of high from watching Bare but it's not enough to get me going. I need something else.

And, oh right. I'm supposed to make a check list so I can track what I've finished and what-not.


Hi165

[x] group paper1
[x] group paper2
[x] FINALS - 03/24 putangina, anong klaseng exam nanaman yun?? @_@ 

Ph102

[x] group paper
[x] JEEP integration 
[x] synthesis paper
[x] ORAL exam

ELC111.1

[x] project  

ELC111.2

[x] project - it was a failure. tsk.

ELC107.1

[x] FINALS - WTF exam.

ELC107.2

[x] lab report07  
[x] lab report08/09  
[x] lab report10
[o] paper about thesis shit - ha. i ended up not doing it, after all. XD
[x] project

note: wtf... for a 1-unit subject, 107 lab is such a HASSLE.

EngPs43

[x] homework
[x] FINALS

EngPs171

[o] website - i'll edit it again sometime this week/solve problems 
[x] FINALS

Drifting

It feels like we're drifting away from each other...

...or is it just me and my paranoia?

Please let it be my paranoia...

BARE

BARE was superb!

The actors were great and I really loved the songs (I'm downloading the soundtrack right now. *evil laugh*). You should go watch it. It's totally worth the money and time.

And I specially loved the twists and turns of the play/musical. I was so affected by the way things are turning out to be. Haha.

Damn, I wanna watch it again.

We weren't able to get a good view because we were seated at the right side. I want a front row seat (like when we watched Fluid before). And the sound system was overpowered by the drums playing backstage. But the play was still great, nonetheless. I just want a better view.

Here's a hot scene from the show. *kilig*

(I'll post more about this when I'm not that busy... hopefully, soon but most prolly after the exams...)

Yesterday was...

...fucked up.


The exam sucked.

The recruitment was a failure.

The entire day was totally messed up.

*****

I watched Tuesdays with Morrie last night. I cried the whole hour and a half or so of the movie. Gawds. And we were supposed to watch it in class. My nose was so red and my eyes swollen. It's still kind of swollen right now. Sheesh.

I watched Hana Kimi again after that. I needed some comedy to lighten up my life. Haha. Wu Chun is <3.>

Snippets of a Crazy Day

I'm supposed to be studying right now for another exam tomorrow (Thermodynamics this time. Gawd, I've had enough exams in my major subjects to last me a lifetime.) but, whatever. That can wait. Haha.

So, today was crazy. Woke up (quite) early to review (cram) for my Electromagnetics exam. The first thing I saw was the bunch of heiroglyphical equations I posted on my wall last night. What a nice way to start the morning... not.

I stayed at Starbucks and tried to force some stuffs into my brain. And guess what? I actually *enjoyed* what I was doing. Yeah, wtf indeed. I mean, I and studying in the same sentence doesn't really go well that much especially if it's in the affirmative. So to think that I actually had fun while doing that... the world must be coming to an end. Well, I wasn't really that enthusiastic about it but for a moment back then I wasn't complaining about how much troublesome it was. I just wish I always have that kind of mentality. *nuninuninu*

The actual exam was a TOTAL FAILURE once again. I don't think I need to elaborate on that.

Philosophy class today was different. For the first time, I was interested in the topic which apparently was death. I wasn't thrilled when we discussed love. I despised civil society. Truth was confusing. And the rest I did not bother to listen. But death was a different thing. I was intrigued, fascinated even.

This is also the first time chaii and I didn't talk much during class. I was surprised, myself. Usually we talk about anything and everything under the sun just to pass time but today, we both listened. I suppose it's a good thing since the sem would be ending soon.

We also sold tickets for the advocacy/fund raising of TWHI in the 6-7:30 class and the short "introduction" I said was so lame. Haha! But we still managed to sell 33 out of the 60 tickets we have. Yay for us!

Anyway, tomorrow (and the weeks to come) is going to be hectic. Til next time.

Not in the Mood (Again)

i'm freakin' pissed off.

and i can't study because of it. 

putangina naman kasi. if i could, i would've told them that i don't want them here. i really wanted to study last night but i couldn't because they were here. ugh.

i don't wanna blame it on them. it was partly my fault, too. i should have studied regardless if they were here or not. but it all goes back to my problem of not being able to study because one, they're here and two, i was (and still am) pissed off.

i'm sorry, but that's just the way i'm feeling right now.

it will pass. 

i should have tolerated. they should have been considerate.

i just hope i do well on my exam.



edit:

i know now why i got pissed off last night. -.-"

Hopeless Case

I'm really not in the mood to study right now. Electromagnetics is not my thing. It's not that I hate it that much, I just don't bloody get it. I'm freakin' clueless and I just can't bring myself to like it.

*****

Dear God,


Please send down some angels to help me out with Electromagnetics.

(Or you can just grant me a more useful piece of brain.)

Amen

Take a Break

Lol. I'm taking a break even before I get started with schoolwork. Haha.

I just remembered something from the latest Naruto manga chapter.

Naruto with six-tails Kyuubi is funny. It looks like a cross-over of Naruto and Bleach. Hahahaha. *rflmao* I haven't given it much thought the last time because I was too busy panicking over Hinata's proposal. But, hell yeah, it's freaking hilarious. 

Now back to studying... or not.



Side note:

My younger brother told me he misses me! *yay**yay**penguin dance*

Panic Mode

I'm really panicking right now. 

I haven't finished my part in our history paper that was due last friday night. I have a recitation in history tomorrow. I have three exams this week. And ROOTS recruitment week is a total FAILURE.

And I haven't done ANYTHING yet.

This is gonna be my death.

Someone, save me.

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